Feminist Space in Dance: hers and hers asks questions with little seismic’s Katie Faulkner

Photo by Brett Walker
Photo by Brett Walker

This article was originally published in the May 2016 issue of In Dance, on May 1, 2016.

Hey, We’re hers and hers. A new queer feminist dance collective in San Francisco We (Courtney King and myself) craft dance-theater with strong woman-identified performers, we write epic poems that make their way into our dances, we blog, we interview our local communities as fieldwork, we conduct an ongoing 35mm film portrait series, we Instagram, and we feature women we admire in an online series called Choreographer Playbook. And we’re just getting started.

We first encountered each other in Katie Faulkner’s modern class at the University of San Francisco’s Performing Arts & Social Justice Program. We began to ask a lot of questions about the relationship between performing and social justice: performing bodies, genders, identities, cultures, norms and histories. We collected a series of these questions in July of 2015 for Emmaly Wiederholt’s Stance on Dance blog — we’ve decided to revisit some of them here, almost a year later.

FIRST,
We asked this original set of questions in 2015; questions to circle around in creative process, in watching performance, and in life in general:

  • What is feminism? What is feminism
    in dance? How can making dance be a feminist act?
  • How are men included in a feminist methodology? How are those with non- conforming gender identities included? How can we represent ourselves and others? Where do we see inequality?
  • Is feminism undermined or strengthened by dance we see today?
  • What can we uncover from experiences/ the body/ideas to ‘an audience?’ How can the personal be shared/related to?
  • Where is the intersection of the personal and the political?
  • What norms are we experiencing that we disagree with? How are we doing? Are we okay? Are you okay?
  • Where does love come from? How do we ask for it?

THEN,
We asked again.We returned to where we first met and shared our inquiries with Katie, in order to gain some perspective. We’re all in new (but varied) chapters, working on respectively new projects. Katie Faulkner’s little seismic dance company has their 10th anniversary home season, for which she’s creating Memoir (a solo on herself), an ensemble piece for five women titled Don’t Worry Baby, and a duet from 2014 with Chad Dawson. For hers and hers, 2016 has been ODC’s Pilot 67, and will include a few more iterations of our newest (un)apologetic quintet. Then we’ll take a dance “sabbatical” for a new photo essay about “getting ready” and a seminar with our collaborators for reading/research on queer theory.

So, we asked again with our longtime teacher and choreographic mentor, asking her to join our chorus of questions; to maybe arrive at something…


Katie Faulkner: I ask myself a lot of these questions, too. And I feel my answers are always evolving. Engaging in the thought process around them, I have definitely worked in my own personal and political life to try not to get too rigid about any one set of ideas. And to recognize how fluid and how constantly shifting a lot of our understandings around these things are. But, I definitely believe that making dance can be a feminist act, absolutely.

hers and hers [Melissa]: I’m curious about what your feminism is. For today, fluid.

KF: My sense is that [feminism’s] roots are in equity, and I still think that’s true—but I think it’s evolved over time to include conversations about more fully making space— cultural, social and political space—for the fullness of a woman’s knowledge, experience, sense of themselves, agency, power, safety.

h&h: All those descriptive words make me think how connected they all are to dance.

KF: Yes. I do think about and am interested in creating classroom spaces that are basically feminist spaces. Regardless of the gender identities represented in the room. At its core it’s about honoring the whole person by creating safe and robust places for people to really know themselves. All of themselves, as much as possible. I feel like dance is a really unique meeting point for parts of self that don’t come into contact under different circumstances and it’s powerful in that way! … There are so many embodied skills in dance that ask for attentiveness, for listening, empathy, connection, attunement—that in many ways ask for humane perspectives of ourselves and others.

h&h: Maybe it’s a general perception of the word political, and how the value system in art-making leans towards a definition of political performance as more overt, public displays of political issues. Work that is private or personal—or even what happens behind the scenes in home or studio spaces—doesn’t register instantly as really political. I think that the private, personal practices CAN be just as political as… rally cries.

Photo by Melissa Lewis
Photo by Melissa Lewis

KF: I absolutely agree. There are so many ways to work politically… My relationship to dance-making is typically not driven by trying to create work around a central idea or a central agenda. I actually engage with making work as a way of understanding the world better. Of understanding the world inside of me, and me inside of the world.

I’m aware that by choosing to be a dance maker, choosing this career, it feels like a very political choice… women deciding to take some room, to define her physical space, and to ask for a kind of attention to how she chooses to be represented and seen. Choosing work that’s outside of the mainstream, margins of commerce and commodification.

h&h: Right. A transactional way of thinking, versus making something that isn’t as tangible: that is risk. In creating a rehearsal space to work with five dancers, we try to create a liminal space outside of everyday life—to suspend how society often determines the rules.

KF: Everyone has a relationship to risk. We talk a lot about “risk” [in art]. There’s a way I think the idea of risk can be very extrinsically motivated.. When in fact for me, getting in front of a group of people and moving in front of them, and revealing my decisions— just that vulnerability is extremely risky.

h&h: Not even creative risk.
KF: Yeah. Right. That exposure. That’s risky to me. I don’t think we honor that enough.
h&h: It’s a given: ‘of course, she’s a dancer…’
KF: Right,‘there she goes again…’
h&h: ‘of course she’s gonna do that up there’
KF: But, the creative risks I’m able to take are not unrelated to my privilege—white, able-bodied woman working within a generally supportive community. The risks I take are not life and death, and that’s obviously not true for all artists working in the world.

… One of the things you said in your Stance on Dance article that I really liked was about the body. Yes, the body is culture. The body is history. The body is family. The body is relationships. The body is choices. The body is anatomy. I think there’s a way of acknowledging that in process. Going into the room and harnessing the deep knowledge that the body possesses is really profound—if you’re engaging with asking the body, sort of interviewing the body. There are ways of engaging with movement-making that are about adhering to known vocabularies, and there are ways of engaging with movement creation that are really about a process of trying to unearth and understand something that the body knows.

Courtney interviews at Pride
Photo by Melissa Lewis

h&h: For us, asking questions is a natural strategy as we try to stay informed by what’s already there. It comes out conducting inter- views in public, chatting with our dancers in rehearsals, talking to mentors. This urge to ask helps us take inventory of what’s actually relevant. For instance, at the 2015 Pride Parade, how incredibly informative it was to ask people of all ages and genders and races and sexualities, to react in real time to: “would you consider yourself a feminist? What do you think of that word?” … and be totally surprised at each response. Sometimes asking questions feels like the only way that we really know for sure how to operate.

KF: I love that you’re doing that. It makes me realize how much I could gain from interviewing my mentors. And my students! Looking ahead and looking behind. To the side. What I like about that is it engages with uncertainty… for me art-making is this exquisite opportunity to engage with the unknown. I really like that. I really like going into a process not knowing what I’m gonna do… I make work in order to know things. I don’t know things and then try to make work about it… How do you think about it?

h&h: I think it’s about making space for people to reach their own conclusions. How might a dance ask the audience a question and then let them answer it?

Do you feel like your solo-making process right now, is like an interview, but towards yourself?

KF: Yeah, I do. Turning 40 this year, was kind of big…surprising how much that affected me. I know it’s not that old, but it has made me reflect a lot on who I really am as a mover, what I’ve inherited, what I agree with, what I don’t agree with… It’s actually been a slow process of stripping everything away and treating this solo process as an interview:

What does it mean to have been a dancer for 36 years of my life?
How does it define me, or not?
Have I really found a way to make this art my own?
What experiences have I had that make me see the world the way that I do? What’s my own relationship to my own body and my own power?

Photo by Melissa Lewis
Photo by Melissa Lewis

All of the questions mean having to go way way way way back.

I really credit my teaching, as I was growing up [in North Carolina], my training that I received was from this incredible collective of women. I have been doing creative movement, modern dance, choreography and improvisation since I was four years old. I didn’t start doing ballet ‘til I was maybe eight, and I took it one day a week from a modern dancer. And, I danced in a multigenerational dance company from the time I was eight until I was 18.

I’ve been surrounded by women who have created their own dance lives since I was a little kid. I’ve been surrounded by women of every generation making their own decisions about the role that dance plays in their lives. And creating situations for themselves where THEY will thrive surrounded by a loving community of people. At every stage of my life, pretty much, I have been surrounded by women who have chosen dance, and in a way that was very much on the fringes of what was main- stream. They were hardworking, entrepreneurial, and creative. And I think there’s a part of me that takes it for granted because it’s been around me for so long. And I only know now how deeply, deeply blessed I was to have those role models. And how feminist the context of my dance upbringing was. Without my really knowing that that’s what it was.

So when I decided to start making my own work, it was terrifying, but it also felt like a natural progression, having been surrounded by women who essentially said:

Of course this is what you do. If you want to dance, go and do it. Make what you want to make. That’s what you do.

h&h: It was a huge aha! for us, seeing that as a possibility in San Francisco. You, and so many women dance artists have multiple modes or ways of working, as women and performers and choreographers and teachers. I think it’s a huge part of why we want to be here and invest as artists here.

KF: That’s wonderful! I do think that young girls, young women, young people—need examples… need models of thriving and self-actualizing. I feel so fortunate that I have women older than I who I’ve watched navigate the eld—who have found ways of building really rich lives for themselves without having children or maybe without getting married or following the well-worn cultural path that we’re supposed to follow. I feel so lucky that I’m in an area where, to have chosen not to have children, to have chosen to pursue the life and career of an artist, isn’t such a marginalized idea. That I’m surrounded by people everyday who are making different choices is incredibly empowering. To your point, having models of people who are coming into their own in robust, self-determined ways is so so SO important. And political. And feminist. It’s all of those things. It offers up a kind of permission. And that’s incredibly powerful.


NOW, HERE,

We reflect. On this safe and robust time with Katie, that let us think aloud on feminism, risk, space, political x personal, and power. As we tether ourselves to the vastness of larger feminist and dance conversations / communities, this kind of dialogue helps us grow. It informs the future of hers and hers.

Dance-making for us has been an act of questioning. Interviewing the body—rich, knowledgeable, enough. Feminism creates space for these bodies. Feminism involves race, class, gender, culture, history, lineage— it has to, otherwise it’s nothing; it’s a shared her. It’s personal and private and also it’s a communal uplifting. Feminism questions the way things operate. It acts on how we each can work towards power. In uncertainty and inquiry is power. A question can open the door to where an answer is housed.

Find the un-excerpted interview with Katie here, soon! / stay tuned with us: @hersandhers_sf. Read the original essay at stanceondance.com.

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How Can Making Dance Be a Feminist Act?


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Photo by Alex Burns

As young, fresh-cut artists, we feel very new. Though we claim the title of co-founders cautiously, we hope to create a solidified community around our vision: to use hers and hers as a feminist platform to approach, envelope and wrestle a spectrum of human experiences. In other words, we hope to contribute a drop into the pool of feminist/dance dialogue.

We ask ourselves: how can making dance be a feminist act? For us, it is.

We believe the medium of dance can be used as a tool to amplify and point attention to feminism and the concepts that surround and support it.

A(n overwhelming) set of questions hers and hers circles around — in our creative process, in watching performance, and in life in general:

What is feminism? What is feminism in dance?
How are men included in a feminist methodology?
How are those with non-normative gender identities included?
Is feminism undermined or strengthened by dance we see today?
What can we uncover and show from experiences/ideas to ‘an audience?’
How can the personal be shared/related to?
How are we doing? Are we okay? Are you okay?
Where is the intersection of the personal and the political?
What norms are we experiencing that we disagree with?
Where does love come from? How do we ask for it?
How can we represent ourselves and others? Where do we see inequality?

Here are some thoughts that respond to some of the above… in no order, with no specific structure…. but we place these thoughts at the core of what we hope to make:

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Photo by Alex Burns

Feminism is the thread through our personal narratives.  It guides us in our choreographic work and creative mind. As we move forward it will continue to be one of the epicenters of hers and hers.


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Photo by Melissa Lewis

Choreographer Playbook: LIZ TENUTO

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San Francisco choreographer, director, and teacher Liz Tenuto invited us to preview her newest work, This Year is Different: a Self-Help Musical. Her company is called Dance and a Half. The show premieres this weekend, November 13-15 at Grey Area (@Mission x 22nd).

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We watched song and character unfold in the intimate 80 Turk CounterPulse space. We took notes. We snapped film photos. We loved being there.

Here are some questions, disparate thoughts, and favorite moments.

Fear, daring, suspicion, scared, not being enough/being too much, anxious, “reptile in my brain”. How do these feelings manifest physically?

Do each of these women represent one person?

FINAL light focus

Female, industrial, wild, self-care, electricity, unknown. 

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How can we become friends with our nature? Evolutionary fit / Emotional death.

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How does the self both challenge and nurture itself? What do we tell ourselves to feel better? How do we take care of ourselves?

To in some way live more fully.
To accept and include your wild self.

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Pictured: Atosa Babaoff, Esme Kundanis-Grow, Courtney Russell and Rebecca Siegel. And Liz Tenuto.

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Portraits of Pride: 7. A.J. and Irvin

A.J & Irvin

Aj hugs Irvin on Castro sidewalk

(21, gay, male) & (21, gay, artist)

A.J:
“I am against male chauvinism, and yes I would say I am a feminist.”
“I try to be the best supporter for my girlfriends.”

aj irvin 2“It depends on the person I am interacting with, sometimes I feel very obligated to be a little more—I don’t want to say gentle, that sounds general…I try to be nicer. But depending on the woman/man I am interacting with I will be like ‘okay, fine that’s your thing’. It is subjective.”
“There is no stigma [to being a feminist].”
Favourite body part: “It’s kind of conceited, but my hair.”

two men lean in to chat on Castro St at duskIrvin:
“Equality for all people.”
“I don’t hold the doors for girls, they should hold the door for me too, we should equally hold the door for each other.”
Favourite body part: “My legs, cause they’re so long.”

Portraits of Pride: 6. Kimi, Celyne, Emily

Kimi, Celyne, Emily

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Kimi (18, straight ally)  + Celyne (17, pansexual) + Emily (Girl, 18, bisexual)

Emily: “I go both ways but I don’t think I like guys as much as a I like girls, but I still date guys”

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On why they were at #SFPride2015:
Emily: “I like how people are here to represent themselves, so I want to come out here this year to represent myself as a gay person”
Kimi: “Oh my god, I’ve never worn a crop top or shorts or anything and in San Francisco they don’t judge you at all and its so beautiful, like I feel so comfortable in my body for once. It’s beautiful”
Celyne: “It’s fun getting into the community of people who are gay, you don’t really have that where we’re from. It’s totally comfortable here”

On feminism:
K: “I think it means equality, for everyone, not just gender. We are no longer the underdogs. We get to fight for our right to be on top for once”

Favourite body part:
Nails, Hair, Face [not sure who was who :)]

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Portraits of Pride: 5. MB and Coco

MB & Coco

Courtney interviews females at Castro

(34, stud) & (42, proud)

Coco: “Are you guys together? Is it complicated?”
Melissa: “Haha! No, no. I mean… just in artistic ways.”

Courtney: Do you consider yourselves feminists?
Coco: “No I don’t think so. I think everything is equal so I don’t consider myself to be a feminist when everybody and everything is feminist” … “I don’t believe in woman power or girl power”
MB: “No, everybody’s the same, vagina or penis.”

mb points to coco's rear
MB: Are you sure your favorite part isn’t…here?

Favourite part of body: “the coco zone” (MB), hands (Coco)

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Portraits of Pride: 4. Zu, Dani, Dwayne

Zu, Dani, Dwayne

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(26, Bisexual male, Juggalo, professional wrestler) & (28, Bisexual female, Juggalo) & (32, Bisexual)

Trio laugh together

On sexuality and gender:
Zu: “In the LGBT community, bisexuals aren’t taken very seriously… for males, this [bisexuality] isn’t popular, this isn’t cool. I can’t help it, I am attracted to females, I am attracted to males. I am proud of it, I am glad it’s sensitive. Bisexual people are fighting to be recognized, to be taken as seriously as gay or lesbian.”

Dani: “A lot of times with being an actual bisexual female—I hate saying actual—it’s such a layman’s term for saying you’re cool with just being with people.”
“I really honestly identify as a human being who loves human beings, but if you have to put a term on it I guess you’d say bisexual”

Trio stands in front of city hall

On Feminism:
Zu: “I definitely support feminism but I don’t support the feminists that are basically anti-male, I support the real feminists—the feminists that are about bettering women just because they’re women not bettering women because they’re better than men. Just because they are people.”

Dani: “I’m about equal rights for everybody. I don’t see gender, I see more connections / energies”
“Everyone needs to chill out and just love each other”

Dwayne: “Here’s the thing about feminism now, people try to approach it like even though we know there are different kinds of feminism, people try to approach it like it is this all inclusive thing like ‘oh as women we need blah-blah-blah-blah-blah’ when in reality black women have an entirely different set of criteria for feeling equal and included. You can’t speak about feminism from the general perspective because it leaves a lot of people out”

Rainbow costumes and skin

Portraits of Pride: 3. Ginsu and Joseph

Ginsu & Joseph

Couple laughs in fox/vest costume

(37, New Orleans transplant, concierge at Steamworks) & (36, Has lived here ten years, works at consignment shop that sells used leather and fetish gear)

Ginsu: “and we met when I went to said job and he jumped my bones.”
Joseph: “Actually, I did.”

Couple kisses on street

On Feminism:
G: “Three of the four, that made this [points up and down to self] possible, were women.”
J: “I have always been surrounded by strong women, I don’t think it’s going to stop anytime soon.”

Courtney: What do you want to see in dance?
G: “… it can convey anything, as long as its conveyed well, it can cover any topic, and as long as you throw your whole heart into it you’re going to be amazing at whatever you do when you’re dancing.”
J: “If the performer can wink at the audience…the wink and the performance.”

Courtney: “We would really like to take a few pictures of you guys if…”
G: “—I don’t know if I dressed up enough for that”

Couple (one crouching, one standing) poses on street

Portraits of Pride: 2. Elizabeth

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Girl stands with group of friends

(20, bisexual)

“I’m at pride supporting friends… it’s a tradition thing now”

On feminism:“I’m not really with it or against it, I’m really open to everything.”

“The way people try to portray it is women trying to take over everything. I don’t really see it like that… I mean everyone has their own opinion.”

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Favourite body part: “I like my hands, they’re creative.”

Portraits of Pride: 1. Patty Cakes

Welcome to Portraits of Pride, our personal way of celebrating and connecting with our city. During the celebration of San Francisco Pride 2015 hers and hers decided to spotlight 14 individuals who inspired us. So, on the Sunday of Pride we made our way down to Civic Center to connect with, photograph and interview people celebrating at the Parade. We came armed with handmade “business” cards, a recorder, Melissa’s 35mm camera and questions we felt were important:

  • Name, age, identities?
  • What brings you to Pride?
  • Do you identify as a feminist? If so, what does being a feminist mean to you? What does the word feminist imply?
  • What is your favourite body part?

It was intimidating to approach and ask strangers these personal/political questions, but hers and hers found several couples, groups and individuals willing to share a moment.

We are forever grateful for the cooperation, excitement, patience and support from everyone we talked to that Sunday. Thank you again (we hope to see you soon). It was so rewarding to hear how our interests resonate with our SF Pride community.


For now, enjoy the first of seven posts and say hello to Patty Cakes.


Patty Cakes (Will Smith)

Cheerleader poses with hands on hips

(West Hollywood Cheerleaders Captain, PCA (Pride Cheerleading Association), at Pride raising money for HIV/AIDs)

Patty: “I love doing [the Parade]. It gives me a chance to brush up on my make-up skills and help other people be aware and stamp out the stigma of HIV.”

Patty Cakes responds to Courtney's question

Courtney: “Do you consider yourself a feminist? What does that mean to you?”
P: “I’m pretty much very open, I’m a free spirit, there [are] no doors closed in my book. For me, everyone should be equal. I don’t classify as anything, I am who I am.”